The other day, I discovered that I would most likely be one of those characters in a horror movie that dies almost immediately because they make a decision that seems blatantly stupid to the audience. Someone was knocking on my door rather aggressively, and I looked out and saw someone trying to get in. I couldn’t see exactly who it was since they were leaning towards the door trying to unlock it, but they kept knocking and I thought that it may have been my sister’s boyfriend, so I opened the door. It was not my sister’s boyfriend. It was a total stranger that did not seem very happy. In that moment, I realized how incredibly stupid I had just been and this man standing there who was just angrily knocking was not someone that I should have opened the door to. Luckily, he was just as surprised as I was, and realized he was at the wrong apartment. He left and I closed the door. Seemingly not a big deal, but I felt pretty stupid for just opening the door to someone that was banging on it the way he was. I definitely would not survive in a horror movie, and I may not survive real life if I keep doing stuff like this. Mom, if you’re reading this don’t get mad at me, okay?
I’m choosing to blame that carelessness on being sick. My brain must have not been working properly. I have some sort of cold or flu that is affecting my decision-making skills, along with my sense of joy. I am pretty down in the dumps these last few days and it is a real bummer. Definitely not part of the brand that I try to represent. Something within me just needs a change. I want to move somewhere new and try something different. I need to write this blog in a new atmosphere. I feel stuck and bored and burnt out with what I’m doing. But again, I will blame that on the cold that has taken over my body and brain. I’m sure that it has nothing to do with the actual events happening in my life and the exhaustion I feel on a day-to-day basis. This cold is also affecting my hearing. My coworker said, “Is the weather warming up at all?” and I heard so clearly, “Watermelon buffalo? 😀” I had no idea how to respond to that, so I didn’t.
There are certain people that are subscribed to my blog that I’m not sure actually read it. I believe they may get email notifications, but I fear they are not into this bit as much as others are. Normally, I would say that I am going to block you if you don’t actually read my blog, but today I am just hoping that what I’m going to say reaches the right person. There is an article that I read a few years ago when I was in an unfortunate situation, looking for the right answer to a decision I didn’t want to make. In this article, it said, “On death beds, no medals are handed out for endurance and a limitless capacity to consume bowls of misery.” That sentence provided me with the reality check I needed to change my entire life. I think it’s important for everyone to know that there really is no prize for tolerating something that we know cannot get better. There are some decisions in life that will lead to a large (but much more temporary) amount of pain, and that pain is most likely always going to be better than enduring a lifetime of hurt and confusion. Instead of bowls of misery, I would recommend trying bowls of Publix soup.
I know that most of this blog has been a real bummer, but I do not want to end it that way. I’d like everyone to watch this clip from New Girl, where Nick Miller (President of Earth) very accurately represents me when I am writing my blogs. If you have not seen New Girl, I need you to stop what you’re doing and watch the show in its entirety. I have seen it probably 103 times and could quote every episode. Some may think that is not healthy, but they would be wrong. You’ll understand once you watch it. You’ll also have a better understanding of my brain since at least 50% of my references are from this show. Just watch it 😀
I hope you have all had a beautiful week and have an even better weekend! Take some Vitamin C, stay hydrated and get some rest. These germs going around are no joke!
Stay healthy, Dawgs! <3
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